October Letter: Turning up your Inner Volume
Getting Out of Being Adaptive Through Conscious Traveling and Having Fun
*I decided to write a letter in Portuguese and a letter in English. Therefore you will receive two emails.
Imagine that you have two tapes attached to your chest. One tape is connected to the impulses that come from within your being, it is the voice that whispers to you who to talk to, where to turn on the street, your next step, the intuition that comes from the wisdom of your soul. The other volume is connected to external impulses, to other people's ideas, to circumstances outside of yourself. We have learned to depend on Google Maps. We've lost the intelligence to navigate with our guts.
Most of us have created the mechanism of adaptation to survive in patriarchy. We turn up the external volume to the maximum so we can react before something worse happens, we know what the other person wants before they even know, we can meet their expectations and keep everything in harmony and peace. We pick up ideas and information from everywhere as fast as we can, constantly checking for the next video, the next post, the next message.
Modern culture has taught us to soak up information and creation like sponges. Only to repeat and innovate the creations, the stories that were never ours to begin with. We haven't learned to be at our own source. To trust and rely on our bodies and our resources. Instead, we have been expected to give our power to the outside.
I'm exploring and experimenting with flipping the focus: instead of going outside in - bringing things in from the outside, consuming it, getting it, extracting it - going inside out - sourcing from within and bringing it out. It is about making the inner volume up.
Being nomadic and traveling in the last month to places where the local culture is completely different from where I was born and raised (Brazil), it's been a powerful experiment to turn up my inner volume. This happens because when you are in your birth culture, or close to your birth culture, it's so easy to know the expectations, the assumptions, how things work, the volume from the outside, so unconsciously it goes to maximum. When you go further away from your birth culture, you create a gap, there is more space. You get the chance to turn up your inner volume.
I'm walking through the small village and I don't even know how to say hello or thank you, this has put me in a big liquid state of letting go of all the identities and knowing.
Now that I'm traveling alone, the question "What do I want?" hits me every day, every moment. What do I want when I'm not subject to my father's idea of the perfect daughter? If I'm not subject to the university and the exam. When I'm not subject to my partner telling me the next movie we're going to see and the next place we're going to go. When I'm not subject to my mother trying to save me. If I have no consideration, no outside voices, no pressure, no possibilities and ideias, no feedbacks and questions, what is the calling?
Well, I'm getting ready to listen to it.
New version of my personal website
I have been working on my website: creating new offers and services, rewriting about myself and where I am now. I got clear about the new things I want to serve. Check out here.
Funding- Turning the Being Volume Up, an experiment about Radical Freedom
I have started a crowdfunding project where you can support me financially on this adventure and also receive gifts from my heart and my being. Click here to know more.
I've gotten more clarity in the last month that my research right now is about turning up the volume of my being and giving space to experiences and tastes and expressions and impulses that were whispering to me that I couldn't even hear because I had the volume turned up all the way from the outside.
There is a monthly call where I’ll share my discoveries, experiments and research about that. Contact me if you are interested in joining.
Videos
Writings
The Way Out of Being "Good" at Something- Radical Freedom
Unleash your Energy for Creation
I started to write my plan of what I will do when I have 100 million euros. It's a work in progress. Here it’s the link of the file I'm working on if you want to know more about what I care about and what my values are.
Next events
Your Bright Principles have been with you ever since you were born. You can make them conscious and choose to make them the center of your life. Then 'your' life no longer belongs to you.
Sometimes we think that what we have to do is different from what we should do, which is different from what we really want to do. In fact, these three things are the same. This becomes clear when you distill your Bright Principles from your life.
When you separate yourself from what really matters to you and write it down on a piece of paper, what you see is your destiny.
Making space to hear the genius of children is making space to hear our own genius. Opening the door to genius is opening the door to our madness, our absolute madness, our chaos, our non-linearity, our irrationality.
As parents growing up in the modern age, we don't learn skills to support this part of us, let alone our children. On the contrary, we learn to tame, to prune, to castrate, to put in chairs, to 'educate'.
The purpose of this room is to practice the ability to call upon and listen to the genius that exists within children.
It will be a 3 hour space dedicated solely to writing. You can bring the book you want to start or you have already started, your website, an article, an offer of your next training, a love letter to work on.
I'll bring exercises and experiments to support you in letting the writing flow from your being, from your feelings, and from your bright principles. I will also ask questions to open doors to your authentic writing.
WRITING SPACESHIP: Every Friday we meet online to write alone-together. The purpose is to have a dedicated space to put into words what your being has to say. It can be a book, an article, a love letter, a poem, your website.
Starts December 22nd, from 8 to 9 pm CET and 8 to 9 am NZ. No registration, based on donation.
*As I'm traveling and my time zone is constantly changing, this may change.
To join the group and have the zoom link, click here
READING SPACESHIP: Every Thursday we meet online to read and study a book together. I will start with Of Water and Spirit: Ritual, Magic, and Initiation in the Life of an African Shaman (Compass).
The purpose of this space is to go deeper into a book, read it and study it together. Discover a new way to nourish our mental bodies while being connected to our other bodies.
Starts January 4th from 8 to 9pm CET and 8 to 9am NZ. No registration, donation based.
I'm starting a free space, weekly meeting to talk about being nomadic and traveling.
Join the group and have the zoom link, click here
Recommendations
Making Love: Sexual Love the Divine Way, by Barry Long. This book brought me new insights about love and sexuality, things I didn't learn in school. It's a book to read more then one time, not because it's hard, but because there are core distinctions about sexual dinamics between men and women. Even though it's written by a man, I appreciate the perspective he brought about the demom on women and how we take revenge on patriarchy by blocking who we are: Love. I highly recommend it.
From the goodness: This documentary breaks the taboos of matriarchy and that it is a myth that in matriarchy women were 'in power'. This is a vision created by patriarchal archaeologists. Matriarchal cultures were about harmony with the earth and there were no weapons because they were not needed.
The purpose of not knowing about matriarchal cultures in the world internationally is to make everyone think that only patriarchy has always existed and is the only possibility. I'm shuddering at the precision and clarity that this document brings to the culture of godness and how patriarchy takes place and how cultures are created.
It’s an independent documentary made by women. To get to know this project, this is their website.
Film Captain Fantastic: In the forests of Washington State, a father raises his six children far from modern culture. Forced to leave his isolation, he takes his family out into the world, challenging their idea of what it means to be a father and to create a regenerative life. What I love in this movie is the beauty and bravery in creating and living the way your heart wants, it's an example of how to build your culture. What I hate in this movie is how they romanticize the pressure and how they deny the feelings. I watched it for the 4th time this month. It's one of my favorite movies.
I met a woman here in Bali, in the hostel where I'm staying, her name is Ambar. She lives in China and she was spending her vacation here. I talked to her about being a woman in patriarchy and how it is in China. She showed me a documentary about the three Mosuo women, a patriarchal village in China that still exists. Click here to watch it.
Have Fun. Love, Gabriela